Saturday, December 27, 2003
you will be there at the right time
whenever i need you
you always appear in front of me
whenever i break down
you will show up
to accompany me
and to talk to me
but i m afraid to fall for u
cos i am afraid
to hurt your feelings once again....
this is written by one of my pal.. corrine.. cheerioss*
12:20 AM
he's back.. in ash..
jacqueline accompanied mi over to da airport..
tense up.. din noe how 2 handle my feeling n stuff..
seeing his parents holding his ash cumin out from da custom..
i told myself nt 2 shed tears.. but i broke down..
well.. i m pretty fortunate dat frens were wif mi wen i haf probs.. tho there were only a handful.. but i simply feel loved.. :)
sch starting soon..
books nt bought, shoes nt bought.. homework nt done..
im a big slacker..
was tinking of getting off wif 2nd of jan n start sch on da 5th instead..
sad.
12:15 AM
Thursday, December 25, 2003
M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S !
sorry guys if you dont get a reply from me these days.. i'm really troubled.. troubled..
now i need is just a pair of faithful listening ears...
i need 2 lean on.. i cant stand alone anymore.. i am not emotionally strong..
went for countdown wif rebecca, minghui, weihao, yeowteck, jonathan yesterday.. its kinda annual gathering for us.. lotssa catching up among us.. (mostly crapz) n i realised that every single one has changed.. every year.. u can see a different person.. how i wish that time could pause at my happiest moment...
went to matt's place for xmas partying ... but wen i reached his apartment's entrance.. i left.. i just couldnt wear a mask 2 smile inside anymore.. i cant take it.. sat at da bus stop staring at moving cars frm 2 am to 3+? memories kept playing on my mind.. i just couldnt stop tinking of wad had happened days back.. he's my good fren.. my pal.. someone whom i used to rely on.. but.. now he's gone.. i just cant accept the fact...
matt went down to look for me and gave me some counselling.. shared his experience.. shared his woes.. we walked all the way from holland down to botanic garden and back...in the middle of the conversation.. i finally broke down.. matt was told me things that i really tink is true.. i m just like someone who is suddenly made to participate in the olympics weight lifting contest.. unprepared.. n made to carry a 400kg dumbell.. can i make it? perhaps with the cheering crowds.. the will power.. i might be able to do it.. but.. maybe just in a split seconds.. i will fall.. having someone who shares the load.. be it one, two, or even ten.. it'll always be better than being alone facing all the troubles flowing in... this example really allows me to relate to my current situation.. i need one to lean on.. its just too much to take.. get someone to share.. ppl reading.. trust me.. i really felt so much better after doing so.. though i aint really close wif matt.. but i must say... best frens aint best listeners.. back to his house at 5 and took a cab back... for da whole day.. i spent more den 30 bucks just on cab.. blame it on da midnite charges!
well.. i'd really like to treasure all i have in front of me ... den regretting after its gone.. hope that u guys have da same tinking too.. life is just like writing a story.. every moment accumulates to a chapter.. we can always review our past chapters and learn from it.. but we cant stop writing.. cos everything is meant to be. never get urself stucked at nowhere..
praise! it's me again. back alive..
5:00 PM
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
well.. its matthew's birthday yesterday (23/12/2003)...
was at his place for partying and got myself as red as lobster due to all da mixtures of vodka wif diff flavour.. red wine n to da extent of opening a bottle of x.o. been sucha long time since i actually went drinking n drank so much..
2molo still gotta work!!! awww.. pretty sad.. shall go zzz 1st..
status: terribly broke..
3:23 AM
Monday, December 22, 2003
1 week away.. life is in a mess..
i simply needs someone who understands n listens.. but there's no one who will faithfully to that..
12:06 AM
Thursday, December 11, 2003
bad weather. totally drenched from my head to my toe.
it's been sucha longie time since i last blogged in eh? u guyz muz be missing me alotx eh? haha. there's sth wrong with my "comments" tingie.. guess i juz gotta debug afterwards if i m free eh? meanwhile.. juz add onto da tag board if u haf a say! :P
busy with my work these few days.. kinda feeling so lerthargic in da office.. 4 days liaox.. still gt 12 more working dayz to go! haha. decided to attend the chuch camp on the first day.. n that's a sunday.. >_< gotta miss another family day.. *sObx*
feeling so sick right now.. :~~~~~~~~~( having some kinda fever + sore throat.. everyday in air con room.. for 8 hrs.. sigh!!!!!! however..i found myself enjoying my job.. reason #1 i'm earning my pocket $$ #2 better den rotting at hm eh?#3 met more frens.. (but not of my age.. i m da youngest in the whole office!!) #4 can play squash during my lunch time.. haha... nice nice eh? :P
buddy will be back
next thursday... YEAH!!!!!!!!! finalli.. :P
but i aint able to join her during my office hours.. awwwwwww!!!!!
damnz.! i lost my hp charger!!! cant charge my hp now... !(*@&^#W9862890^*()@& how how how? haha
goshh.. dunno wad 2 blog liaox.. ahha.. sorry guys.. no time for my personal stuff.. no time 2 tink so much.. perhaps its a gd ting? lols!
8:03 PM
Sunday, December 07, 2003
matt is finalli back from his holiday.. but will be leaving again 2molo.. *gosH*
he seems 2 be enjoying himself lots this month.. n mi? suffering..
2molo starting work liaox.. dunno wad 2 wear.. da dresscode is formal. haix.. guess i juz gotta do some shopping afterwards wif mum eh? later gonna go all da way 2 bt panjang.. -faint- it's my nephew's first month.. gonna meet up wif all da aunties n uncles.. dunno wad 2 tok 2 them too.. sigh..
intending 2 sell away my palmtop this cumin week.. cn sell off at ard 300-400 bucks? heehee. den i shall tk da money n chip in for my aunt's 60th burfday celebration this wednesday.. heehee.. no worries eh? :)
buddy seems 2 be troubled recently over her family problems.. juz dunno how 2 help cos its between their parents.. guess its sum kinda relationship probs? wad i can do now is juz chatting n cheering her up.. its hard on her.. :~~( 11 more days! she'll be back. so excited over that.. heehee.
oh ya.. there's tis church camp 14-16 december. shud i go?
sigh sigh. its at sembawang.. kinda far.. but da recruitment dosen seems gd..
was tinking of supporting 'em.. but.. i'm also afraid dat i mite nt be able 2 fork out da time.. wad 2 do?!?!?
oh yeah.. shall go n makan my lunchieeee now.. blog in lata if i m free eh?
found tis mail n found it interesting..
FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow,
The company that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of
their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than
into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?
So what is behind the story?
Do you know what the word FAMILY means? FAMILY =
F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU
11:50 AM
Saturday, December 06, 2003
finally back! will nt be blogging so often as i'll be real busy in future..
next wk still need 2 attend to hao's dad bdae dinner.. his parents kept havin da tinking dat da both of us r still 2geter after 3 yrs of break-up? haix.. also dunno how 2 settle tis misunderstanding.. wad shud i get for hao's dad? was tinking of a bottle of red wine.. so we cud drink it durin dinner.. haha.. let's see how everyting goes eh? hey peeps! pls gif sum comments eh? two brains r always better den one =)
grandma stayin over this weekend @ my place.. this implies dat i've gt no more bed 2 zzz on :( shall see which kind soul wud let mi into their room or invite me to his/her place 2 ton.. heehee..
will start working @ the pines this cumin monday... tis job is paying well n there's no reason y i shud turn my aunt down.. planning 2 buy a new hp wen i get my salary.. is gd88 better or 7250i? tinking of getting a phone with built-in camera n user frenly.. budget less den 500 bucks.. wad do u guys tink?
been realli drifted away from my frens recently.. wad 2 do man?
dad's hospitalised.. realli want sum1 2 tok 2 .. but no one seems available.. noe elva's having her own problems too.. so dun wanna add on 2 her burden.. hao busy wif his driving lessons, ben ong bz wif gf.. matt's overseas for holidays.. everyone seems so busy wif their own stuff... arghx!
shall add a bishi bashi champ machine in my wishlist soon eh?
3:29 PM
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
today aint better off eh?
hrmmx.. tings aint goin well for mi recently..
juz recovered frm my fever 2day n went out wif rebecca n cyndi..
becky will be gone 2 malaysia tis morning liaox.. gonna miss her eh?
hrmmx.. saw agnes shimin n yeeying at da bus stop when we were on our way 2 makan at tbp.. they dosen seemed happie bout it eh? haix.. dunno wad they're tinking bout too.. went crazy da whole day wif da both of 'em.. was pretty happie i wud say.. perhaps there's no kinda.. stress on it eh?
met jiahui at orchard juz now n bump into steven, glenn n weng kian.. was in a rush n juz walked off.. pretty sad dat i din get da chance 2 catch up wif 'em.. they were my close pals in pri skool afterall eh? minghui will be organising a party for our batch of pupils.. hopes it suceed.. ^-^ in dat way.. i cn meet my long lost frens.. lols!
yawns.. 2molo canoeing training.. tink i better end here.. haha
12:56 AM
