tired.
dead tired.
really very tired.
dammnnnnnnnnnn tired.

had my chinese o's paper this morning.
guess i'd just gonna flunk da paper yeaps..?
it seems dat my situational writing is all outta points.
*arbishhhhhh*

followed by da long waited dragonboat training!!!
geees..
been looking forward to this training cos i've been really away from all these liaos..
but it seems 2 be more of a disappointment ya..?
seeing da weeks of hardwork not appreciated by some really breaks my heart..
da attendance though more than 60%.. but 17 souls r still missing in action.
soo.. wad's wrong wif them ya..?
got their butts stucked on their chair/bed or somewhere ard..?!

perhaps.. i in da 1st place shudnt even got myself to help out in da coordination of all these ya..?
days n nights of preparation... sacrificed time to do all these instead of my exams.. y cant they just understand..?
mi n my buddy has been pleadin ppl like beggar to join this competition.. we're just like fools!

sighhh.
just felt dat..
perhaps.. somehow..
we're not appreciated.

Sunday, May 30, 2004

hrMmmz.. its again another sunday.

caught the day after tomorrow on theatre last night wif my sisters n jack..
well.. this show is really worth thinkin' bout.
if..
today wud be da end of da world.
wad will u do?
spend a few mins or so pondering on dat.. ;)
i'm sure u'll get ur mind stucked up somehow somewhere.
cos we've too many tings dat we wanna do dunch we..?

as for me..
i'd really wanna tell my family members n all my frens especially those who stood by me wenever i'm sad how much i love them n how much they meant to me..
for da past yrs.. as i get older.. da way i present myself in front of my family members gradually change too.
used 2 hug n kiss my parents gd nite n stuff like this..
but now.. it'd be damn awkward for mi 2 do dat ya..? ;P
perhaps.. this is why.. i dunch even haf da courage 2 tell them how much i love them..

maybe.. this might be just be a little stupid to tink so far till da end of da world.. but..
who knows wen its gonna happen?
hahaz~

woke up at 6 am this morning..
went to send my grandma off to airport..
n she'll be off to china for 6 weeks.
dats really long.. i guess im just gotta miss her alot during this time..
went jalan jalan ard wif my parents n aunt.. till noon..
n wad do i have tomorrow?
O'levels Chinese?
i just dont feel it.

Friday, May 28, 2004

it's da last day of da this semester.
supposed to be enjoying my holiday now..
but.. it seems dat im pretty tied up wif my o'level chinese exam on this comin' monday..

pretty short day..
attended sch 2day..
sat @ da hall for an hr assembly conducted by our naggy loh
and followed by a nkf talk that we long seen n heard of last yr..
recess.
and went off 1/2 way wif my grp of pals n went to k box instead of our chinese class. and yesss..
guess u peeps should really visit dat place if u're lookin for a cheap n great ktv.
its not very crowded though.. or rather.. its simply pretty empty ya..?
enjoyed myself over there wif da great companionship of dose babes. ;)

well..
really stressed up over da kinda life im leadin now..
im sickk..
im tiredd.
wen will all these pains n sorrows be gone?
da day wen im deaD.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

if only my parents care.

so wad if i've gt 1st in class?
so wad if my ca card is circled very good?
did they even tk a glance at it?

no idea why i studied so hard for..
staying in this position is really tough n stressed up.
but why it seems like nobody understands?

i'll really break down..
i promise.
if this continues.. i will be in total lost.

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

i'm perfectly well today.

feel so refreshed after a run just now.

but.. guess i hurt my heel. *sOb*

sch was a little meaningless today.
had chinese lesson, sexuality lesson.. n skipped my chinese remedial.. hahaz.

well.. dats all bout today.
short n useless day.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

sick.

haven been eating anything except a panadol just now.
feeling so damn weak now..
tried eating some biscuits when i came home.
but threw everything out.

been suffering lotsss in sch 2day.
had our post exam activities.
talent time n floorball compy.. n of cos. da 2 hr hell.. chinese remedial..

was surprised dat i rejected the offer by my teacher to go home despite feeling so lerthargic..
got no idea why too..

o'levels chinese is round da corner..
drawing nearer n nearer.. in 5 days' time.
sadddd. no preparation done yet. how?!

Monday, May 24, 2004

reviewed all my exam papers today.

it seemed great n at da same time.. pretty bad too..

my results are as follows:

english language : 56.5/100
chinese language : 65/100
mathematics : 76/100
accounts : 69/100
science(phy/chem): 59.6/100
humans (geo/ss) : 59/100
design&tech : 66/99

managed to pass all.. but with mixed feelings within myself.

why do some ppl study so hard but yet failed n some lazy bums like mi can pass..? aint da world unfair..?

n da saddest ting is.. y do we hafta include our CA marks into our chinese????!?!?!? argHhhhz....
thought i could finally get a b3.. sighz.

just gotta work harder for da upcoming o'levels chinese paper..
ENDURE ON!!!

Sunday, May 23, 2004

am i thinkin too much?

perhaps i dunch even haf da rights to ask.

was really at loss last nite.
smsed my buddy.. n thank goodness she was there for mi.
otherwise.. i really dunno wad im goin 2 do nxt..

had terrible headache n slept.
worthless life.

Saturday, May 22, 2004

its a fine saturday..
woke up at 6 in da morning just to attend da accounting event organised my np..
was pretty bored.. or rather.. it's REALLY boring there..
felt so inferior upon seeing 60 other schools there..
n most of 'em r those well known skools ya..?
at the begining.. i knew it was impossible for us to win..
perhaps.. its an eye opening experience for mi 2 see how well other skools perform in a/c...
to me.. theory has always been a waste of time..
practical work sounds more practical to me.. (aint i crapping-.-")
got to tok to this bm ger called sin jing..
my 1st impression of her in skool is like.. this ger is really dao..n "lianish"
but... after exchanging some words..
my impression of her really changed...

met up wif a grp of BLUE guys on our way back..
sickening guys.. never seen such bunch of guys ever in my life..
was complaining dat we're like strolling in da park..
unreasonable.. aint dat a public path for all to walk?
why not get their grandparents to walk n try commenting on them?
ridiculous.. i was really pissed off n gave off a remark and suggested dat they shud find another alternative way to walk..
this carried on wif remarks passed by my fellow girlfriends..
n eventually.. went to our kian leong.. lols..
a fight nearly broke out...
just a penny of thoughts..
all these big fights usually start off with a small thing aint?
humans are like this i supposed. ;P

went to orchard...
hang around... shop.. makan.. n was pretty boring too :X
hrmmz... but was really glad dat i got myself a bracelet dat i always wanted. ;)
but.. juz got no idea y i'm down wif this sickening headache n sprained ankle which mks mi so lerthargic for da day..
nevertheless.. its rachel's bdae 2day..
happie burfday baby.. :P sent a parcel over to ur place ler.. ;P
hope u like da present from mi n cong.

shall go n haf my dinner now. *mUarKsssss*

Friday, May 21, 2004

mid year exam is finally over!
pHewssssssss~

7 days of torturement is gone.

10 days later.. it'll be chinese o'levels.
really lost confidence in my chinese after 2day..
it seems dat i really noe nuts bout it yeah..?
time to buck up!!! ;(

took back my maths and english paper today...
76/100 (maths), 24/50 (engp2) & 23/30 (engp1)
guess i'll do real bad for my science n geog this time..

once again..
another meet-parent-session.
its gonna be in 6 days time..
but i still cant get someone to go..
all workin.. even my siblings..
cousin leaving for business overseas..
argh!!! felt so unwanted.
can i be exempted from this..?

jammed my feelings.

Monday, May 17, 2004

watched troy last nite..
a fabulous n fantastic show.
peeps. better catch it too ;)

well.. exam period.
i dun feel it at all!
guess sumting is really wrong this time.
i even went into the examination hall without any preparation!
wad da heck i tink im doin manz?

targets r set.
but it seems impossible.

Friday, May 07, 2004

6 days to mid-year examssss

have not even started wif my preparation.
sad.

9:47 AM

Thursday, May 06, 2004

aaaaaaaaa..
i've never imagined myself outta my usualy irc life for days.. n soon be a week..
been off my com for days.. except for checking my mailbox..

life has been VERY slacky to me..
been sleepin lots.. but still..
m still as tired as before.

mood has been bad.
throwing my temper every now n then..
well.. sorry peeps if u're one of da victim ya..? gees.

currently having my english tutorial..
once again.. it's LIAN's lesson!
as boring. as meaningless.. haha..

heard frm some frens dat da guy's dragonboat crew is goin bad.
n to my surprise.. those ppl r pals frm da canoeing team.
aint he da one who said dat we SHOULD all join this compy..
wad kallang is a place of OURs..
is dat all craps n shit..?
though i aint sure whether wad i heard is right..
but just to give a thought to dat..
wad has happened to our canoeing team???
is it tearing apart now.. or..?

sigh sigh sigh..

actually. i've got a lot to write in.. soooo much things has happened to me recently..
his mum has been caling mi days back n telling me bout wads happening at home..
i m really so stressed.
guess i just aint prepared to help someone when i cant even settle my own stuff right now ya..?

life for mi is so much away from my fren..
currently leading a life w/o much great frens ard..
but wif my 2 beautiful n lovin' babes sis.. n my wonderful parents..
n... my grandpa who has left mi yrs back.?
just felt dat he's so close 2 mi now.. or rather..
like a guardian angel watching over everything bout mi..
i've placed my family as my 1st priority..
frens.
perhaps some. but not all r great.
some r just bitches n bastards trying to ruin mi..
selfish shit n useless crap.
i might not haf da rights to critise them.. but.. wad 2 do..?
dat's my thoughts.
its posted in this lame web.. blogger...

crappy enuff aint i?
shall leave now to complete my assignment.
meanwhike..
dun miss mi ya..?
i promise 2 be back more often..
;)

2:41 PM

Monday, May 03, 2004

having my english lesson now..
been doing some kinda crappy stuff in here since da begining of da yr..
well..
exams r drawing nearer n nearer...
to be exact.. its 10 days to my first paper..

sad.
aint prepared for any at all..
really need someone to control me..

hais.. so much chap to cover..
dun tink i'll be able to finish all..

well.. this is wad i call..
HOLDING BUDDHA'S LEG... lols.

dats all i haf now..
BLAHZ.. :P

9:27 AM

Sunday, May 02, 2004

w0ebegoNe


life's been bad.
leading a meaningless life now.
life ahead seemed so far..

had a great chat wif desmond last nite till 1 plus when my fone batt went flat.
gees. well..
been really a long time since i last catch up wif him n liat liaos..
misses da days where my seniors doted mi so much.
haha.. now.. juniors r sick. ;)

usin my lappy now..
my desktop got infected wif some virus.. bad. bad.
cant even surf for a more den 5 min.. hang.. or auto shut down.
gotta wait till my sis bf 2 cum back which is in 2 wks' time.. frm brunei..
or liat n des 2 end their exams in a wks' time..
;~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~( my darling is sick..
so will i.
lols!

yeaps.. guess dats all i haf for da moment.. ;) *wInks*

1:16 PM

Saturday, May 01, 2004

STRESSED

this com sucks.

10:48 PM